You have put through so much.
You only put pain on my plate.
And you expect to me fill up.
But I'm full.
And I'm about to burst.
You were never there for me.
Expecially when I needed you the most.
You walked out....
Chose drugs over me.
Destroyed your life along with mine.
Destroyed your physical and mental health along with mine.
So don't even try to be apart of my life now.
I hate you.
I just wish you could feel what I feel.
And all I have felt.
Because of you.
All because you.
When I see your face.
When I hear your words.
When I feel your disgusting touch.
What you put me through.
You are now dead to me.
I just want you out of my life.
If you really love me.
Then just leave me be.
Only colors are black and gray
Covered in cuts,bruises, and scars.
From being used and played with.
Like a toy.
And now it's damages are permanent.
No one cares.
About the constant pain it feels.
About its fading rhythm.
And the constant stabs it feels.
Soon this heart will be unusable.
Dried up and dying away.
Overused and overwhelmed.
I hope you are happy.
You will regret it.
It will never be there again,
to provide amusement for your sick pleasures.
Misunderstood GothBlack clothes,
May not look like it but she's been through alot.
Scary and unaproachable.
But sweet on the inside.
She wears the fish nets,
Armwarmers, and make-up.
To cover the scars.
Physical and emotional.
Because she's afraid of being abused again.
Just wants a true friend.
A true love.
To cherish and hold her.
To heal and patch the scars.
So she could let the black burst into color.
And be who she really is.
For the people that she needs to love her.
That girl used to be me.
Until I found the people close to me.
Like you Tim Kendzior.
Thank you so much for being there for me.
And helping me heal.
And feel loved for the first time.
So much is possible now because of you.
And only you.
Late Night WishesI think about you all day and night
What I would do for you to be in my sight
I call you up when it's late
Not being able to see you is what I hate
But no matter what i won't give up this fight
Your my way out, to lead the way, my light
Oh, how much I want to be held in your arms
And out of life's harms
I love you so much
And I long for your touch
I can't wait til I can once again see your face
Inside my chest, my heart will pace
I can't wait til your mine
Ill be by your side all the time
Ill call you baby
And Ill be your one lady
Soon our lives will start together
And we will be happy forever
~I love you